Having another one of those epiphany type nights, if you will. I tend to have a lot of these, pretty sure it has gotten to the point where they're no longer special. I think I'm just finally figuring out who I am after a year where I was completely lost. I always said I wished I was an asshole, but that was anger and pain talking. The truth is, I'm not really thrilled with being the typical nice guy, but I don't want to be an asshole either. I think you can be a decent person without going out of your way to be nice or overly supportive for people. I guess what I'm saying is that I am getting more and more comfortable with the idea of just looking out for myself and if I feel like it, should the situation present itself, then I can go out of my way to be nice if I feel like it's appropriate. We'll see how that goes, God knows I'm flakey when it comes to personal changes. I just feel like I've done so much for people in my life and a lot of times (not EVERY time) I'm left feeling like I didn't get much in return from them. Perhaps that's a selfish way of looking at things, obviously you should do nice things for people not for the personal gain, but because you want to, but I guess we all have our flaws. Anyway, Better Off This Way by A Day to Remember is the song of the day. Probably one of my favorite set of lyrics for any song.
28th tally for A Day to Remember, 4th tally for Better Off This Way
Better Off This Way - A Day to Remember
You know I'd rather say nothing and just be proud of myself for tearing down these walls.
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